How about you? Are you an idiot or the offspring of past idiots?
I'd be honored to be your ancestor.
Seriously, I have the innocence of youth to hide behind. I had an overwhelming curiosity about the Bible at age 13. It only took a small leaflet placed in my door to get the ball rolling.
As for there being only print media back in yesteryear, there were plenty of books and tracts written about the subject but you needed to have balls to go to a Christian bookstore to even glance at "apostate" literature.
After getting into the witnesses I developed a desire to collect the old books and literature. Unfortunately, I could not afford them. If I did I probably would have bailed out sooner and not lasted 8 years in that infernal swamp. I had an odd experience once with a 3rd generation witness and her husband when they showed me the book The Finished Mystery that had been passed on through the years within the family. Holding it in my hands I decided to open it and read some of it. To my bewilderment they both started yelling and gesticulating at me saying "No, no! It's different!". I remember just catching a glimpse of it. Something about Behemoth and railroad trains. How odd that they would hand me a book to admire and yet go ballistic when I did what any normal human being would do and open it.
Overall, it was my curiosity that got me into the JWs and my curiosity that got me kicked out. I'm not hard on myself for that but I do remain bitter over that crucial moment in time when the best years of my life were taken away from me.